Try Something New 2018

Try Something New: New Thing in August

In this blog, I pledged to try one new thing each month in 2018. The new thing could be trying a new food, doing a new activity, or going someplace new. I have asked my fellow readers and my boyfriend to hold me accountable. At the end of each month, I will tell you all what new thing or things I have tried. I will also discuss the barriers that caused me to not try it before.

I didn’t do many new things in August. I’ve been busy preparing for grad school (my math class was an undergraduate course), but still made time to do one new thing. Expect the rest of this year to not have many new things that I try thanks to grad school and the beginning stages of wedding planning.

So the new thing I did this month was going to a new restaurant.

Barrier to going to new restaurants: I think we went over this many times on this blog, but for my new readers, I am a picky eater. Due to society’s negative views on adult picky eaters, I am trying to become less picky. However, I have a fear of going to new restaurants because there is a possibility that there won’t be anything on the menu that I can eat. This has happened before (but with a familiar restaurant) when they ran out of my only “safe” food, and it was horrible.

Why I decided to try this new restaurant: Franklin and I have started a tradition that whenever we go to church, if it’s not a potluck day (which is only from October to June), we will go out to lunch after service. This restaurant was nearby, so we went there. It is a requirement that we go somewhere nearby because I don’t want to leave my car in the church parking lot for too long. I don’t trust any cop to not tow my car if no other car is at church.

My thoughts on the restaurant:

  • It’s the only place where a veggie burger isn’t obscenely spicy (earlier this year, I had a veggie burger so spicy that I could only finish it once it’s been chilled in a refrigerator)
  • I’d go here again (yeah, not much to say about this place)
Mental Health · Self-Discovery · Self-Reflection

I Am A Highly-Sensitive Person

This blog post can also be titled “DiaryofSelf learns something major about herself after originally looking at self-soothing techniques” or “DiaryofSelf couldn’t be in the lab at work so she ended up looking at Psychology Today articles” or “I keep getting distracted by jazz music” or “Can I not accidentally blind myself with my engagement ring?” (Yes, I am now engaged to Franklin as of August 15, 2018. More on that in a later blog post)

Hey, it’s been awhile. After math class ended, I was busy catching up in kickboxing and giving myself time to recover before going back to school for the fall semester. I will try to post as much as I can before August 27th, but I can’t make any promises. I’ll have classes three times a week during the fall semester.

So this blog was created over a year ago to document my journey of discovering who I am because most people figure out who they are before the age of 24 (the age I was when I started this blog) and I thought it was high time to actively start figuring out who I am. A year into blogging, I felt like I made no progress towards figuring out who I am. I feel like I unlocked a big key towards figuring myself out on August 14, 2018. I went to Google to search “self-soothing” and while reading stuff on Psychology Today, I found an article called 14 Things Highly Sensitive People Need to be Happy. I read the article and another article linked inside the article and realized one thing:

Hi, I’m DiaryofSelf, and I’m a highly-sensitive person.

Now I didn’t always think I was a highly-sensitive person. When I first read about it awhile ago when I heard about the book “Raising a Highly-Sensitive Child,” I didn’t think it described me very much. But now it does. Your personal identity can change over time. For example, some transgender men identify as lesbians at first. Janelle Monae identified as bisexual until she read more about pansexuality and felt like she identified more as pansexual.

So what is a highly-sensitive person? It is a high sensitivity to external stimuli (like social or environmental stimuli) or internal stimuli (like your thoughts). My high sensitivity mainly comes from external stimuli, especially if it’s things that are racist and sexist. It’s why I had to stay away from people’s Tumblr blogs.

My high sensitivity is why I get extremely angry over social injustices. It’s why I have such a hard time adjusting to change. It’s why I worry so much about what people think of me. It’s why I pick up people’s emotions and absorb them as my own. It’s a part of why I have an anxiety disorder (fact: Highly-sensitive people are more likely to have issues with anxiety). It’s why I can’t stand criticism at all. It’s why I shut down if I am given multiple tasks in a short time. It’s why I desperately NEED to find out who I am and what my purpose in life is.

Now that I know more about myself, I am taking the time to educate myself and my parents on what makes a highly-sensitive person and what I need in terms of support. I cannot be treated like someone with a regular or low amount of sensitivity. I am going to ask for a book that helps highly-sensitive people overcome their anxiety issues. I’m glad to be taking active steps to improve myself again.